So the exams are pulling in. I have one exam each day. This time I gotta work real hard to pull up my marks for at least a bit more. Here's my exam list:
Spanish (1st)
World History (1st)
French (2nd)
Canadian Law (1st)
It's gonna be so hard waking up at 7:30 to get to school at 8:00 to study half an hour before the exams... I've also done pretty much no studying today except for this morning on world history. Ugh this is gonna suck. I'm gonna have to try harder tomorrow. I wanna get better marks. I didn't know becoming a kindergarten
Going to school early to attend an assembly about course selections...
Course selections = need to plan future
Planning future = looking for a university / College
Don't know my future
Never thought about my future
I can't even deal with my present I need to deal with my future now...
I am so screwed... It's like My friend Laura said today: "When I was a kid people told me not to worry because I had many years before I ever had to think about it. Now that I have to think about it I don't have enough time." I'm so freaking worried. Laura was so worried... she kept asking people how they know what course they wanted to pick or what they wanted to be in the future. Seeing her worried also makes me worried. I use to plan about my future a lot. But I didn't plan in DETAIL.
Today I don't have much to say but I had a dream last night which I wanted to write down. Instead I'm typing it down. My last post I told you about my believing in a lot of things. Dreams would be one of them. Dreams are fragments of memories being replayed when your body is at rest. However some may say that they can predict the future. I sometimes feel that it can. However the dream I had last night did not predict my future.
It was when I was a kid. and this guy I use to call my older brother (哥哥) would always be at my house. In my dreams he was there. and I came back from school crying. My friend made me cry that day. I told him that everyone in my school is nice I don't understand why someone would be that mean to my friend and push her. But the person blamed it on me pushing my friend. And the teacher made me sit out. Then he told me this thing that I didn't understand really. He told me that there are different kinds of fish, dogs, and cats. There are different kinds of vegetables, fruits and even chocolate. "but most important of all, there are different kids of people. However, they are only different because of the different ways they experience life. They are necessarily mean or necessarily nice. Being a nice person or a mean person depends on the moment they did what made them who they are." he told me in my dream.
I haven't seen him in ever. I wonder why he'd appear in my dream. :S but yeah that's all I really wanted to say. I don't know why but I felt like I just had to write it down. Oh! and I've always been knitting a round (endless) scarf lately. I'll take a picture when I'm done! I'm knitting a red one first and then a white one. Sorta Christmas feeling! Oh and MERRYCHRISTMAS! One video I wanna show you today. it's a lights performance pretty cool!
Start watching at 4:15 until 6:02. Pretty cool! Still gotta get started on my homework! Hope it snows really big or something when school starts so I get more days to work on my homework. I still didn't start filming with my group for my law project. I hope they know it's due when the break is over.... So yeah, Merry Christmas and have a happy new year! :)
