Today's Special: The Aging Bomb

              I'm a very... special and weird person. I admit it. Like it isn't that hard to admit but telling you why I'm weird might be harder... 

 *Ahem - Suppose this girl hears that someone likes her. She may be very happy but deep inside she wishes that she did not hear about this because the person who told her expects an answer. When she doesn't give an answer, they ask for more... and MORE. Now suppose this girl had never dated before (unless a 2 day relationship counts). And suppose the closest she got to dating would be liking a guy for a year who also liked her back but then she gave up on him because he was always surrounded by girls. and she's just a Super jealous person... 

The good thing is that the guy who likes her isn't the one who told her. Cause if it was, maybe it'd feel worse than it does right now. Like she's probably had feelings for him before. She's not sure. She's never sure. Because after what happened before I don't think she believes what she feels. In fact, watching everyone around her being so separate and playing around with relationships I don't think she can really believe that relationships are that simple. Like She's a pretty selfish person. She really REALLY likes keeping things to her self and caring about her own feelings for most of the times. She could never support a relationship! She'd even write a contract out to keep herself out of relationships for maybe... FOREVER? One that she focuses on would be: Don't expect me to actually have strong feelings for you. She thinks it's hard to like someone. She knows that nothing lasts forever that means a relationship won't last forever. She knows that when it ends if you had feelings it'd hurt. Hurt SO BAD. that she'd build a stronger wall. She can't live her life like there's no tomorrow. She'd like to plan everything out. She'd like to believe that there are MILLIONS of tomorrow's coming after this one. She's still VERY VERY YOUNG! 

Like the person who likes her isn't a bad guy. He's really nice and makes her laugh but really... is she up to it? He may be amazing but she maybe be HORRIBLE.  I'd like to say that people shouldn't expect too much cause then disappointment will be even worse. In fact, She hates it when people say she'd look good with someone and constantly tell her to go out with that person and be his GF. She can pick can't she? In fact you're not even the  one who likes her. you should let the guy say what he thinks too. Like deep inside she's happy someone likes her. But she's confused it's like an explosion of old ages. Problems are like zooming out and causing you to have eye bags and wrinkles just thinking about what to do. Just leave her alone!  She has school. She doesn't even understand why people are so concerned about getting into relationships at such young ages. And the one who tells her to get into one is someone she'd probably not listen to about relationships. It seems as if her friend has been is SO MANY. Her friend is always with a guy. She doesn't know what to think. It's not that her friend is bad. It's that her friend sets a horrible example for relationships. 

So yeah... Where was I? Telling you why I was weird right? :S